The first time I knew we might not spend our life together,
That you weren’t sure it’s what you wanted.
I felt my heart break.
My body ran cold and my head throbbed.
I couldn’t think straight.
I didn’t understand at first what you were saying.
I had to read between the lines, but it was clear.
I wanted to be confused.
I wanted to be mistaken.
I felt physically sick.
Suddenly my future which a minute ago had been so clear,
Was now dark.
A huge black cloud now overshadowed everything I had been looking forward to,
The first time I realised you could live without me,
A part of me died.